Are friendships worth it?

Since 2020, I thought I met the most wonderful people online. The 'friends' I had in elementary and middle school (though, one of them was pretty awesome) and zero in highschool didn't compare.

But we didn't have the same interests nor we ever shared hobbies, we ended up bonding through trauma and struggles that I'm only realizing. It was never about us but them. So expectantly, it felt one sided and draining.

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Nowadays, it's difficult making friends without the other person wanting your social media or instantly take it as an invitation to start a relationship. I've had my fair share of creeps and individuals that were too different from me to even get along.

Maybe I just have really bad luck or I'm still in the process of healing that I haven't seen the sighs so clearly. I'm learning to put boundaries and I'm seeing that these kind of people aren't for me. I grieve what was had.

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This might come off as childish, but I'd like to be friends with someone that likes dinosaurs and Shrek. To understand what a picky eater is and gets giddy at the sight of a flower. One where we encourage each other when we do art and talk enthusiastically about movies and childhood games.

Though, I feel like I'm too old on catching up with the more recent or modern media but mentally young at certain things. Now that I think about it, I come off as a bit naive.

That's just who I am and maybe that's okay.