WARNING; includes sensitive subjects (r4p3, 1nc3st, mental states, and opinion). Please tell me if there's anything I should also warn about this blog in the comments.

This is about the mental condition of Hypersexuality.

I personally believe I'm Hypersexual since I have many of the medical symptoms.

- unwanted sexual need

-unwanted thoughts with family, friends, etc

- the thoughts being recurring and uncontrollable to the point of disgust.

- Uncomfortable need of m2sterb2tion.

- getting 'turned on' from casual touches

Before I talk more about why I believe I have hypersexuality and won't get diagnosed, I'll describe what it is and how someone can become hypersexual; 

Hypersexuality is NOT intensified h0rn1ness. Hypersexuality is usually in the form of uncontrollable sexual urges to the point of the hostess being disgusted with themselves but unable to do anything to counter it (summary). Hypersexuality is usually triggered by being exposed to s3xual content online and/or a s3xual interaction IRL. Hypersexuality affects daily life activities with a need for touch. A few of the negative effects of this condition are;

- Feelings of guilt, shame or disgust

- Increased risk of contracting a s3xually transmitted infection

- increased use of dr4gs or alc0h0l

- mental health conditions such as depression or anxiety

- suicid4l ideation

I personally won't reach out for medical help since I live in a very religious family where females can't even m@st3rbate in case of 'popping their cherry'. My family shames women for simply releasing stress in a s3xual act. Despite me being very connected with my religion, I always feel the need to touch mys3lf, it makes me feel disgusted that I'm 'not clean'. This alone, I'm not allowed in a doctor's office alone, if I tell a doctor about all my thoughts, they'd probably think it's just hormones or that I need help. How could I not feel shame telling anyone that I think of my own flesh and blood in a s3xual way? It even comes to the point of thoughts of r4p3, which make me disgusted, knowing that real victims of such actions must've gone through hell, but I can't control it. I always attempt to not think of such things, but they don't stop. It even comes up during school, about my friends, people I despise. It's uncontrollable.

I started having such thoughts around the early age of seven, probably from unrestricted internet access. I watched MANY things that I shouldn't have seen at such a young age. A few years ago, I was also diagnosed with anxiety to the point of nausea when in public and sometimes vomiting, which shows as one of the effects I've listed, which I really hope wasn't true since I was bullied for two years before that.