tofu and cannibalism

I'll probably post this on tumblr too but... I have been having the worst, absolute worst cravings for firm blood tofu that looks like human meat. I'm a cannibal and I'm willing to drink blood from a vetted donor or eat fried human skin if legal and medically assisted, but never to the point of immediate death for the donor. That's how I know I really crave it. 

I did eat someone once in a past life and it was during a time where I was starving and dehydrated, then had a fantasy episode so bad I hallucinated everyone else was still alive. I have these intense cravings to chew and bite, and I had recently bitten on my QPPs neck so hard it left an inflamed hickey. I have been frustrated and upset and spiraling over not having human meat, like a dog in the kitchen for the first time tasting scraps, I have been starved of my rightful meal.

Though I know I will never actually get my hands on real human meat, for legal reasons specifically I don't care about morality, I am able to substitute it with human blood in vampyre circles or animal blood from a clean source, hell, I'll even take thick syrupy broth that's red enough without it actually being blood. I'll do anything to feel that rush again, like I'm not human, like I'm hunting...

And by God, am I hungry.