I need to get something off my head real quick

So I've been thinking a lot, and the more i lounder about it is, it makes me have more questions than answers.

How did i even become bisexual? Like sure, i have mutual attraction between men and women but I'm already starting to fall into the category of liking men more than women, am i even straight? I don't know.

It's diluted to me.

I don't wanna fall onto a stereotype of being a bisexual but i only lean to males, it's on a weird grey spot now. I don't even know if its because I'm leaning into more of a male-attraction than mutual male and female attraction, does that make sense? I'm sexually confused right now, if thats even the word to use while i type this.

 I like girls, but not too much that i am sexually attracted to them just attracted to what their personalities are. But when it comes to boys is where i melt down, i fall to my knees and beg for the skies that i get even a chance with them, and yet i feel grey when i'm in a relationship that's just stagnant, sure there's a bright light of fun when they're replying to you sweetly but that's that, my body is really confused on which i would have an attraction with .

I guess i need some insight, hopefully i can answer my stupid conundrum. Thanks for listening on my blog.