We broke up :)

I have always expected things to end up like this. I just didn't expect how I underestimated the depth of the situation. I thought it was just because she's tired, that she needs space. That loving me is overwhelming. But my-my.... How could she do that to me? 

For the longest time in our relationship, I have always viewed myself as the naive one, always wrong one, always causing misunderstandings one. Despite all the efforts I did, I was always "immature". And I believed every part of it. My self-image slowly disappeared with her. And she used it against me.... Worst part? I was aware and I let it all slide.

What I didn't know, she was the biggest hypocrite there is. She would argue how bad certain behaviours of mine are, when, in fact, SHE WAS DOING THE EXACT SAME THING! She made me feel bad about my family's situation (we were wlw and my fam's not the most accepting of it), she made me feel bad trying to find solitude to my closest friends whenever we're going through a hard time. ALL THOSE I ENDURED. Only to find out how big of a liar and a pretentious snake she was. I hated certain people FOR MONTHS because of the way she narrates her story, only to find out the same people have hated me the same way because she was talking shit about me to them...\

I'm so glad I finally realized my worth, and had the self-respect to leave that relationship. I'm glad I made sure/ and I still make sure that there are no traces of her in my life. 

I gave my everything to that relationship, it's time to get myself, my spark, my life back :)