lost

i have no one to talk to but i realized i can yell into the empty spacehey void.

i barely have any friends as is, but the ones i do have, despite claiming to like me always ignore me. always get weirded out by everything i say. when i complain about it i’m ignored again but it’s so obvious everyone saw what i said. my friends are good and nice people so i don’t understand. the kicker is that we mostly talk in My discord server. why am i an outcast in my own server? ack ack ack ack ack

now one of them is asking me if i’m okay 3 hours later (they were online the whole time) without addressing a single thing i said. what do you want me to say here? yeah everything is awesome dude.

i’m just sad that i thought i finally made friends after years but in the end i will just never actually be valued or respected by anyone and i guess no one can get along with me. Okay!! i do not think i’m particularly a bad person. maybe i’m wrong?

WHATEVER cal OUT