I hate being anxious

It literally plagues me everywhere I go, even the internet. Even if I feel very confident and happy on one day, once something goes wrong for me, anxiety will come flooding in and make me unable to function. Like atp, it's not even scary for me, just plain annoying. For instance, I was at Michael's with my mom, and we were in line at the checkout. I noticed another girl walk in, and she looked like a former classmate I really didn't want to talk to. Personally, I didn't really think about it at the time, but from the moment I saw her walk in, I started getting shortness of breath, sweating, my knees locked in, etc. Worse, my mom starts getting mad at me for freezing up in line. So in a panic, I run off to the car, and in the process, I almost got hit by one. Overall, it was NOT fun :( But don't even get me started on people who just tell you to calm down. When people tell me that I just lash out at them, and feel terrible after. Like, ik they're just trying to help, but it's easier said than done.

Moral of the story, I wish I never had anxiety and life would be so much better if I was actually medicated.