:(

i know this isn't really the kind of thing this site is for, but i know no one is gonna see this so atp i don't care.

i kinda regret breaking up with my girlfriend. but it was for both of our own good.

i have terrible mental health issues, thought of doing... that act a few times. but the thought of being so mentally drained that i barely if not ever text my girlfriend makes me so upset. she deserves so much better than someone who can't even have the energy to send three god damn letters. i feel so damn guilty.

i miss having a lover though.

i fear the worst could happen if my mental issues got worse though.

p.s., if you're not gonna be nice to a mentally struggling person, don't comment. thx.