Tired and Shaky (x2)

And nauseous! Working when you feel sick all the time is not fun! I actually cried most of afternoon in the spare time I could find. The heat from being outside caused more spots to appear, along with more shaking, dizziness and ofc nausea! No I cannot take 3 hours off if my 10 hour day today, because I have coworkers who need me for this job, and yesterday someone gratefully filled in. But oh man, you know I’m going to throw up. I already feel it and I’ve drank so much water today, and if I drink more I can feel my chest rejecting it LOL. Speaking of my chest, it hurts. Nothing new. My feet have fallen asleep 2!! Again. I would like to live normally pls?! 

The feeling isn’t brutal enough or at all to warrant a breakdown, but maybe I’m just overwhelmed by the constant coping I gotta do. Or maybe I’m downplaying it. Now it sounds like gaslighting. Am I advocating for myself by saying I feel horrible? Or am I playing up something that should be pushed through? I would like to say the first, but no matter the answer I HAVE to push through it, or I make myself look bad. So take care of yourself and know your limits, but “suck it up and continue when it gets annoying for others”? That don’t sound right either. Seems that my Mom would like me to just work right but also was sorry that she brushed off symptoms. But she admittedly also said she doesn’t know what to do. None of us do and she’s doing her best. I’ll have to just cope for now. 

If you see a random pile of vomit, legend says it could me mine.