I HATE WORLD...

maybe that's not new at all. it has to be bc of my disorganized attachment!! cuz, why am i one day talking to a lot of people and wanting to socialize but the next hating them and never replying to their texts??? then, after IGNORING their existence i get jealous when i seen that they are interacting w others. DAMN!!! U REALLY DON'T CARE AB ME AT ALL??!! AND YOU JUST REPLACE ME?? this easy?? 

now... thinking it more clearly, TELL ME I'M NOT DOING ANYTHING SIMILAR TO LOVE BOMBING or sum shit. no, no, no. it's the fact that i cannot physically be consitent at a relationship.

anyway, hope y'all understant my situation.