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no like seriously real talk what's your true perception of the "meaning of life" cause I was chatting w/ a friend yesterday about being scared that I'll just amount 2 a 9-5 job 4 the rest of my life, w/ my dreams almost being achievable but being JUST far out of reach that I'll daydaydream about what could have been. i don't want that, I'm terrified of that happening & they said "I feel like that's the meaning of life, you don't know how it will turn out and there's a secret thrill in that..." I DON'T FIND A THRILL IN THAT MY GOOOOOODNESS, that just makes me overthink more. Like what if I amount to nothing and everything that I’ve worked hard for will just mean nothing because I couldn’t fully achieve the goals and dreams my heart has carried for years. I am known among my friend community as the mood maker and happybug who (apparently) bleeds sunshine and walks on rainbows 24/7, but in actuality, I have a sad soul that usually creates pessimistic viewpoints, resulting in usual fights with my positive self. So it's a lot of back and forth when it comes to these topics of discussion, and I'm just curious about other people's perceptions. Eventually I'll always choose my most positive outlook; that's just what I feel I was born to do. I deal with my own darkness, privately work through ways to see the brighter side of things, then spread that through my bubbly happiness. My mother gave me my name to remind myself of the love I am able to spread but sometimes it's just hard when you want just HALF of that love returned to you and you're fighting with your own personal turmoil. So when I contemplate themes like "the meaning of life" naturally I think "live life to the fullest because we only have one" but then deep down I think "we have one life so if you aren't happy wth it you're screwed." IDKKKKKKK I'm just curious about how other people think about this XD
SEEEE EVEN RIGHT NOW MY BRAIN JUST SAID “nobody’s gonna interact with this so why even post it, this is embarrassing” IT’S THE FIRST THING MY MIND SEEMS TO JUMP TO AND I JUST FIND IT HILARIOUS HALF MY FRIENDS DONT TRULY KNOW HOW NEGATIVE I CAN BE INWARDLY!! Anywho I’m still gonna post it though cause my laptop died mid blog & had 2 switch to my phone so all that work for nothing seems wasteful so
OH ALSO
I finished watching the new superman movie yesterday and (though I grew up with marvel and my superhero knowledge pertains more to marvel) I was blown away by how human superman felt, especially his speech to Lex Luthor that I feel ties into what I’ve been questioning about what we’re meant to do in life as humans.
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When he said something along the lines of "I wake up every morning, and despite not knowing what to do, I put one foot in front of the other and I try to make the best choices I can. I screw up all the time, but that is being human and that's my greatest strength" I was quite surprised with how relatable it was considering that’s how I feel majority of the time with how much I have to do physically and mentally to get through my days and in my mind now I'm thinking "Maybe that's what the meaning of life is; doing the best you can with what you have and trying your best to make the most of it before the timer runs out” but then like clockwork my brain thinks “but you never know when your time on earth will run out so will we ever fully make the most of it?” IT JUST NEVER STOPS, but it seems even Superman has his moments of weakness and doubt so yeah I’m just curious about other people’s perceptions of the “meaning of life”.
even though I’m FIGHTING to delete this i’m gonna post it so any thoughts on your perceptions of “the meaning of life?”
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turron
I don't know much about anything (my brain is empty when I'm not overthinking) but I think the meaning of life is to learn and love. Not like the romantic kind necessarily but I mean like the kind of love that comes from living for others: working hard at something you love because it'll make someone else happy, helping people, being better so you can help people, and on and on.
I say this because that's the only way I was able to keep living in spite of my depression a few years back. Sure, I felt like trash, but I didn't want anyone else to feel that way, either! Doing things out of love for others helped me grow a lot.
Through loving others, we can slowly come see ourselves as who we truly are--part of the world and part of the universe :)
that's such a wonderful viewpoint :-) love for the world and others around you will always outpower the hate!
by Lamby; ; Report
That's such a beautiful perspective on life and living through love and kindness is for sure a superpower. I really admire that you were able to have a new perspective when getting through your depression a few years ago. I have a similar mindset where there are certain feelings and instances that I feel no human deserves to experience so I aspire to make sure others around me feel seen and understood. I can see how inquisitive you are through your comment and it really means a lot to me that you chose to share your viewpoint on here!!!
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Lamby
i think the meaning of life will be different for everyone
personally i think my meaning of life is to just keep living through it until it ends
to reach a point where i can say with confidence that i enjoy living
in little ways all the time that happens, i guess
i took a real nice nap this afternoon that's not enough to fix everything but i guess that's the meaning of living, to find ways to be content and happy whithin all the despair, to allow yourself to just exist sometimes without feeling wrong for doing so
it's different for everyone, but that's what it is to me.
Wow that is really beautiful, I really like that viewpoint. I think sometimes we forget to be grateful for the more little things that make life enjoyable, like you said, taking a nap (which I hope was a really nice one). I also agree with you on focusing on things that make life easier, not completely removing the hardships of life, but just existing in contentment. I'm so happy you interacted with this post I really appreciate you! Thank you for sharing your perspective, I really like it :]
by ang3L0ver818; ; Report
thankyou :-) I think ur post was very fun 2 read i hope you make more in the future & i hope you can find a meaning of life that works fo ryou <3
by Lamby; ; Report
I feel honoured that you enjoyed my blog entry! I have so much in my brain that I feel I rarely can express verbally so honestly, I might use your comment as motivation to post more, since it seems like you enjoy them! I feel like over time, I will find my definition of the meaning of life; it's just that right now, I feel like I'm in an in-between phase of life, haha. HOPEFULLY MORE TO COME :]
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