18???

long time no see? hey yall <3 ! so it's been so long since i've been on here, my last blog post was right lol i didn't end up using this platform much at all lol. but its been a few years im 18 now so im just gonna update my life a lil bit. so basically ive been through a lot, personally relationships have fallen apart (including mine and people around me), ive reached goals that honestly when I had first made this account I didnt think I would ever see (graduating highschool). it's just been a time. i've had to power through a lot of my life these past few years and now that im at the top of the mountain onto new endeavors im finding it hard to keep up. my life has always been a mess that ive managed to hide well, but now it's getting to the point that I cant even hide it anymore. idk its been a weird time, a lot of feelings that I cant really describe. all I can say is im plateauing i fear, and I need to get out of this weird funk. I cannot wait to get to college, but at the same time im dreading the process and pushing everything to the last minute. I don't know if im ready for this yet but i dont have a choice in the matter and its just a big moment to let out a sigh lol. but anyways im currently writing this on a 2008 macbook pro, surrounded by my sidekick lx, listening to some music on my ipod and transferring photos from my digital camera. so... im really feeling the vibes. but yeah see ya later <3