my life lately

does anyone else feel so motivated and unmotivated at the same time??? like i think about my future and all of the things i want to accomplish but then when it actually comes time to work for it i legit cant do anything

like i have a internship at a vet clinic because i've always dreamed of being a veterinarian, and yet i can barely force myself to actually go to the clinic most days? lowkey its probably just because nobody actually trains me or talks to me there.... its so unbelievably awkward

yesterday i was legit on my phone for 3 hours straight at the clinic and i was like nah bro im going home

sometimes its really good though?? but ive been skipping a lot. it doesnt help that my managar doesnt really care lmaoo.

but also like, do i really wanna go through 8 more years of school after highschool to be a vet?? uhhhh... not really, but im gonna do it anyways!!

if u read my little rant, thank u for listening heehee