LB,my little lovebug💙 (dumb poem I wrote)

  I don't know how this thing we're doing came to be because I'm not over her one bit. However we both happened to be alone at the right time, we were both looking for chaos, destruction and distractions and unfortunately my brain went to you I want to get all these stupid thoughts out of my head it's probably not real anyways, not to mention illegal in the court of law.then you get to calling me that name and the world just melts into flames..  I don't like you. I don't think? I can't like you. It's not fair to her- Or to you if I'm not completely over them. on top of that ik we're just friends, and barely even that! We just met and somehow I'm your Saturn. That's your favorite planet. Right lovebug?    Oh, lovebug....  I feel as if I've took 500mgs of Morphine when I see your text with that stupid pet name and blue heart 💙I'm not falling for the nicknames or your rich-boy charm. I refuse to. I'll wait it out and I'll find peace within myself, besides hanging out all alone is nothing new to me. I've been hiding in my room hoping for someone to come and rescue me. And maybe we've fallen out of love but I still miss your touch. Am I really too much? I gave you all my trust now there's no more us, so instead I'll go to him. Lovebug, will there be an "us?"