epic farts ensue (Jargin No.21)

whoops sory

i forgot to write anything for fwee weeks uh ohhh whoopsie daisy my bad

summer break has been active for the past few weeks and for the most part it's consisted of a lot of video gaming and sleeping, very hype i know.... got into Death Stranding because the new one came out recently and it looks cool but I haven't played the first one yet so I'm doing that first. I can only do it at my mom's house though because while my laptop could probably run it, i know for a fact it would become my new fireplace at 999999999 degrees and I want this thing to last at least until the end of college

also been listening to a bit more music, Funeral by Arcade Fire was pretty good i like that one. I already told this joke to my friends and got no responses from them

"Arcade Fire if they were hungry: 'Apple fritter apple pie (fries, fries)'"

i sat on that joke for 4 days i hope you guys liked it

drawin

i also did some drawing and by drawing i mean i did it once since last post and that was yesterday and i need to draw more and i'm frustrated that I don't do it more often... to be fair i'm always aspiring to do everything always but i physically can not draw consistently and develop video games and learn 3D art and learn music production and get better at art and finish my backlog of games movies shows and books and keep up with friends and family all at the same time which sucks. if I had any superpower it would be not needing to sleep/infinite energy because i would be able to do so much more in my lifetime and not become lobotomized staying up all night 

but any wayw the drawing yesterday... here are some of them, i posted more on my art instagram but that last two (rabbit and cat, mae borrowski) are super spacehey exclusive

these pictures are so ginanamasourous i am so sorry, i don't have enough HTML and CSS knowledge to make a super cool awesome magnifying feature on my little spacehey blog i don't know i just don't

also that last one with the rabbit and cat isn't supposed to be a pintrest emotional/inspirational movie quote or anything, i drew the rabbit first and i messed up the eyes three times i think and i was using pen for line confidence practice so i couldn't erase it, so I just drew glasses over his eyes. and then i drew the cat and the eyes also kind of came out wrong and the mouth came out wrong and something i learned with pen (because I never use it) is that you absolutely can't experiment with it because i tried doing that with the cat's nose and i didn't like it as much at the time and couldn't erase it. i think it looks okay now but that was yesterday. but anyway the writing is in reference to me occasionally writing sometimes self-appraising sometimes self-disparaging comments next to doodles i liked or ones i didnt like and i added that because i realized i should probably stop writing comments like, quote, "ok who cares," "epic fail," and "mandated drawing practice beginning tomorrow for the rest of your life boy." end quote

uh

ok honest time, i don't have much else to write about. video games ruining brain

speaking in of and the video games... working on another game project alongside that other one that I won't speak of yet but i like it because it's very fun, but this one is much more horror. Silent Hill style if you smell what i'm stepping in. it's something i kept on putting on the shelf because i couldn't figure out a gameplay loop worthy of spending time developing on, but i had an epiphany the other week and figured it out out of nowhere at 5:30 AM while i was trying to sleep. so i got it now and i'm working on that too. worst part's gonna be that I HAVE to learn 3D modeling and that sucks so much because learning anything sucks and everything sucks and I hate it but it's gotta happen.

to practice 3D modeling and animation and stuff I have plans (in-head music video AMV's born during long car ride with headphones and music) for "Bones" by acloudyskye (my goat)

god knows i love acloudyskye and the new album contends with my previous favorite album of theirs it's all so amazing i love it. but anyway this is the song, not my favorite one (that one is Float) but really good and i have ideas for a lyric music video. already started trying to 3d model of the characters and it honest to god doesn't look terrible for a guy who used blender once to make a beer bottle asset and then one other time during a gamejam to make a character model with no rigging knowledge. now there is no time limit besides either the end of the electronic age or the end of my life so I have time to learn proper rigging and modeling and surface painting and weight painting now. there's so much to do for one character model i hate it

work ethic hasn't been great i pray to god for help me

OFF TOPIC, so technically tomorrow but in my head in two days I'm going to the yearly family reunion for 4 days and i feel really excited about it this year for some reason, more than i usually do. it's always the same and usually the same family members but i'm hyped and happy to see family and whatnot. Aahh wait i didn't even think about the fact that I get to listen to music for like 4 hours going there with headphones it will be so peak. also every time we travel there we always stop by this really good amish buffet place for lunch and it's so so so so so good

for the trip my mom's doing a thing for the kids where they get to do a scavenger hunt with poems as clues to find small tradable play coins and I wrote a couple poems and wanted to show them not because they're ground breaking but because I actually wrote something for once and wanted to show it

Fire Place

"In walls of metal, I do lay,
For when comes the end of day,
Light will grow, eating away,
On debris children use to play."

Power Box

"Cogs and wheels, pistons and wires,
Steel gains life through my tires,
Veins tunneled to vacuums and dryers,
Grounded to power mechanical desires."

and then at the end of this month as a graduation gift my mom is taking me to Chicago because I asked if we could perchance see the Car Seat Headrest show in Chicago and she said yea I am THRILLED and HAPPY to see Car Seat Headrest and Will Toledo and Andrew Catz and Ethan Ives and Seth Dalby i'm ready punching the air jumping running around in circles thank you Will Toledo for inventing sad gay music and cool gay music here is one not really specifically related to anything just sensory filler because i'm talking about CSH... this is my favorite one though and i know it's like their third most popular but i promise i'm not a fake fan i heart car sit head rat

aaand then after that at the VERY END of the month my dad is taking me to Gen Con as a graduation gift (mom and dad are divorced) and I'm also very excited for that... if you know Gloomwood which I do because it's a really rly good game that i like, i'm going as The Doctor and it'll be cool and awesome, first time i dressed up as a character for a convention in years

forgot that okay that's all

ok honest time, i really don't got anything else to write about

lied hah guess what i'm going to College™ in about a month, moving in to my dorm in the middle of August and i'm hyped for that... first thing to do I'll go to every gathering and talk to many and also eat food and walk around and do stuff I like to do with other people who also like to do it, it will be awesome. i know in previous entries of blogs i've gotten sappy and annoying and gay about finding a boyfriend in college but at this very moment right now and for the past few weeks, it hasn't been a topic that's been bothering me a lot which I think is a good thing. I say this as I am listening to CSH so things might take a turn in the next couple of parargraphs, but regardless and as i was saying

i like the thought that you can't search for love, it has to come to you (HAUGGHHhh vomits and pukes and braps) because it's kinda just something to lift the topic off your mind a bit. Don't hug pillows and pretend you're sleeping next to a beautiful twink because that's not a good practice and reinforces the opposite idea. Also not productive... sad and gay and stupid... just do youself an favor and do whatever else you gotta do and keep up sociability and you'll make it boy. or girl, or they, i don't know who is reading

anyway college yeah the past few days i've been spending trying to find out how in the earth i'm gonna arrange my side of the dorm room to fit all of my stuff i like and then also two posters. too hard, i would be flayed alive in the interior design department

shut uo

ok super honest no lies pinky promise, that's all i got this time around. i might have things to talk about next time maybe no but i don't know i will see

shoutout to weatherday, listening to My Sputnik Sweetheart its banger

next blog 48 panel yaoi comic keep your eyes on the lookout

doing a quick read-though boy stop talking about twinks and gay you can't go one blog boy istg

also i found out a while ago how to make a bat look /\/^.vv.^\/\

do you see it. the bat

ok done goodnight spacehey internetican people

Edit: one grammar mistake fixed. you'll have to tank the rest of them i don't care

Edit 2: lied i forgot to give the blog a name

Edit 3: ok realy quick i wanna say you know when a song is so good you gotta jerk off

not intended to be a strange comment just saying it's very good music thank you aclodyt.sky