the geographical curse

I feel like im just going to waste my life away trying to leave, trying to get out of here. I don't know if this feeling has a name but im sure it's not an original experience. I wasn't fortunate enough to be born in a 'good' country, mine was constantly wrecked with wars and political unrest. I also wasn't fortunate enough to have immigrated to a first world country so I can get a citizenship or anything. I just feel like i've been destined to slave away my life in pursuit of a foreign passport, a foreign citizenship, a better life elsewhere. And i don't know how many years of my life i have to give away just to prove that I am human and worthy, i mean if my gov doesn't see me as human or worthy then how will I see myself that way you know? It garners this deep feeling of worthlessness that god knows when i'll escape it. I don't feel any sort of connection to the land i was born in, it has given me nothing but suffering and despair. And being a woman doesn't make it any easier too. So i just feel like im floating in space, nothing to hold on to you know? I don't know if it's an identity crisis or an existential one... but it's not fun at all.