feelings

feeling are complicate 

ughh this is fucking annoying . i hate everything . im angry wtf is going on . all i want is to be left alone to think . i want to be in a world were there are no humans other than me. i hate myself for hating you . i hate myself for hating myself . i love myself because its me . i know there is something in me that is me , i feel it . i feel alive . i love to feel alive, even when i dont feel like living , isnt that life? is it or not? i dont know ig it depends . it doent . i dont know . everyone lies in their own ways to feel better about themselves. miserable pathetic manipulated and manipulating idiots . in this world nothing is true or real or right . what the fuck are we even fighting over . it doent even fucking matter . mind your own business . FEELING IS MADE UP A SOCIAL CONDITIONING . WE DONT ACTUALLY FEEL ANYTHING. WE ARE MADE OR FOCED TO FEEL THINGS.  ITS NOT US. ITS LIKE MATH. NOT REAL. MADE UP. TO BE ASSURED THAT EVERYTHIBG IS RATIONAL AND NORMAL. EVERYTHING IS NOT A PAINTING. THINGS ARE THINGS NOTHING MORE NOTHING LESS. IT CRAZY TO THINK OTHERWISE. THATS NOT RATIONAL OR SANE. giving up. giving up on humans 

child labor must be stoped being glorified. how do you not realize? are you really this stupid ? you are a fucking idiot . despite being a kid you wont help other kids have a childhood. what the fuck are you doing playing with slime when  genocide takes place. human are no longer humans . some dehumanize other get dehumanized . how can you sleep in the soft comfortable bed of yours , will it only affect you when your limbs are ripped apart like the others and your home blown 

 what the fuck am i saying . stfu . 

dry dead soul less eyes that never close 

watch this world from the being to the end and repeat till each and every single atom of your becomes a black hole one by one and everything blows off just to come back to mock you. you will never disappear no escape no heaven or hell . you exist forever, have had and will for ever . there is no end . no nothing . everything is has been always be everything . no surprises. plane basic shit your been used too. 

stop fucking around like the world told you too and you believe its what living is , slave to a system that forces you to never give up 

forced to be nihilist which once seemed as libration . escape bs just to find yourself is bs of another type

(just saying random shit in my mind)