nostalgia....

thinking that everything was like before, normal, good but because of being such a problematic girl I disappoint everyone sometimes I just want to be 5 years old again, not being able to stop thinking about those beautiful memories of being a child affects me too much ... I want to be an innocent happy girl again ... I would like to go to a field and get all the air I need ... maybe that would make me feel better ..... play toys with my cousin, sister ... have that emotion of playing again ... that energy ... have that fear of scary dolls again, the monster under my bed or be afraid of the dark again ...