It’s not adhd, it’s that damn phone

I have friends who have been diagnosed and they somehow always have to tell me that I’m autistic, especially when I’m ranting about Spider-Man or the backrooms or frozen. I have never once thought I was autistic. I thought maybe at most it was ADHD. I mean there is something totally strange going on up there right?

I had symptoms, y’know? 

Zoning out constantly, forgetting things instantly, fidgeting during things I’m not interested in, not being able to focus on things I’m interested in, executive dysfunction, procrastination, stuttering over my words often, random intense attraction to a piece of media, ect ect. 

And like sure maybe from a a surface level view that kind of sounds like ADHD. Something is definitely not normal about those behaviors. But I’m like 80% sure it’s not ADHD or autism.

Not only do I hate being associated with one of those teens online that self diagnose themselves with every nd and mental health issue under the sun, but I’m also pretty sure it’s just because of my phone addiction.

My screen time averages about 12hrs a day during non school days and 8hrs during school days. I’m not able to put down my phone unless I’m using another device or watching a show. Even then I manage to somehow push aside the device for my phone only a couple minutes in.

I can’t stay focused on any of my hobbies and run to my phone 24/7. It’s been months since last time I picked up a book and finished it. When I’m screaming at myself in my head to go get up and do basic hygiene or a task that I really want to do, I CAN’T. I’m stuck glued to my phone, scrolling constantly.

And those symptoms hadn’t started till middle school, around the time I got my 2nd phone.

I can’t say for sure that my phone is the reason for all of my ADHD like symptoms but until I get diagnosed, I refuse to acknowledge ADHD and will continue blaming it my phone until further notice.