A Rant, Some Thoughts and Updates ✿

Hello fellow, SpaceHeyers! I totally just made up that word, I haven't blogged on here for a while! so, this is gonna be like a little life update! no one asked but no one needs to anyways!

A RANT

Today is Tuesday where I live and me and my friends from work have been planning and wanting to go to a pool because hello? summer! I even bought a cute swimsuit, but we're supposed to go this Saturday since that's a day where everyone is free but today, I asked for a confirmation, and no one is replying properly??? I genuinely don't get people who do not reply properly like it is a yes or no question are you coming or not? why are you sending stickers like it gets to a point you know??

Like this person is also still sending streaks and I know you go on your phone at least once a day like it pisses me off, it genuinely feels like I'm the only one trying here and the issue is that the pool we wanna rent for a day is literally free!! all they have to do is pay for the food it is always so hard to plan with them like literally it is like this all the time!

A THOUGHT(S)

Does anyone else love disappearing on social media then suddenly post yourself so gorgeous then disappear again? yeah, me too, I am currently in the disappearing part and a couple of days ago I took some videos of myself which I'll post like I dunno when hehe, I love posting weeks after an event for some reason.

Three days ago, I got a notification on Instagram that my best friend's cousin posted and I literally have notifs for him off, why does Instagram do this oh and did I mention that he was my crush at 14? yeah a wild time I must admit... the ones who get it just get it because I feel like if you were a 14-year-old girl with a crush on that one guy you wasted your Middle school life on... you would know. Anyway, how the hell does he look better now?? like I truly believe I'm over him but seeing him just reminds me of how I was when I was 14 and I do NOT like that, he's not even in the country, he's out for Uni but he has been posting a lot recently. I haven't talked to him in like 4 years or 3 years I'm not sure

My best friend might be travelling with her family for a week or two so before that we're gonna go out for coffee but it's alright because she might be back in time for my annual leave WOHOOO (I love her more than 'too much!') So, we can hang plenty then! maybe even with her cousins because we were all basically family before! (minus him because he's not in the country)

The only thing I hate about growing up is that things really do dramatically change and it just unsettles me I dunno but I would like to always think that it is for the better and it teaches us to be comfortable with our own selves like I have learned so much about myself after 18 and I'm grateful for that! I believe that if you find comfort in your lonesome, "feeling" or "being" alone won't hurt as much as it did before, as long as you keep thinking to keep moving forward, take time for yourself to reflect and focus on the things you CAN control in your life!

Of course, it's easier said than done. 

THE UPDATES

Four days ago, I went to my cousin's graduation party in my uncle's house and had a lot of fun! I felt like my family is my family! I need to get used to go to my grandfather's house more often. I used to go every Friday when I was little, but you know... things happen. But we're better now I believe

Yesterday I did a watch along for the first time in discord with a friend I met on here! It was fun! I wanted to open my mic but for some reason I was nervous, which I really shouldn't be but oh well. SHOUT OUT TO THAT FRIEND YOU'RE SO COOL!

Today, my sister went out with her friend's alone for the first time like without me and my mom tagging along, she's turning 14 soon, so far, she's having fun. I'm just glad I am able to give her the life I wish I had at her age.

-Em ^_~