Agh! Time is wierd!

Sometimes I just sit down and realize how long ago 2020 and before was. Like what?!?!!! What do you mean it’s been that long? Already?! It’s kinda insane to me feels like they were closer to yesterday then Being almost a decade away. Sometimes I wish I could go back to then so I could enjoy the things I love all over again, find them sooner and cherish them more. Do things I’ve been meaning to do sooner, it would probably mean I wouldn’t have some of the things that I’ve made and love now but honestly what’s a few lost art pieces if it means I get to go back and cherish it all over again 

This is a cherified post about my hyperfixations, moots and friends. Wish I could have found them sooner and cherish them when we actually do hang out (I’m so bad at that, agghh! ;-;). Wishing I drew more when I was younger instead of hating my art because it just wouldn’t look right, I wish I read the comic I so adore sooner instead of letting it sit in my recommended bar for probably months before giving it a chance and then finding out it had just gone on its first long hiatus of many. I wish I had started using my tumblr sooner or we’ll made one sooner as well (I don’t regret not doing that fully cuz I would have posted my hazbin fanart if I was doing like what I do now and I’m gonna be so real, I think I dodged a bullet with that one. But I am sad I missed out on interacting with more msb and dwtb fans when they were posting art of that, made me delay meeting other fans and I still haven’t gotten the chance to. I artificially made a friend into dwtb tho so I’m taking that as a win.) it would have been great for my art skills and practice and definitely a lot better of a social media then trying to use Skinseed lol. Might have become even more crazy about dwtb if I did lol. I would have still found tpoh and ggg because I found out about tpoh through some dwtb fanart I just would have found it a lot sooner. I’m glad I didn’t join random discord servers as a kid but sometimes I kinda wonder what I would have been like to have that community. I’ve experienced it now with ggg and I love it I just hope to feel that with my other likes as well. I wish I could meet past me and give them a hug, they were a shy mess of a kid who was so confused even if they truly did know it. They would’ve never recognized me, probably think I was a stranger. They always grew up admiring other people’s skills I just wish I could tell them to love their own as much as I do now and maybe tell them to try and keep their friends and not ignore them even if we are bad at communicating and reaching out to them. Also to draw more, I wish I drew more, I only really started in 5th grade but if I got to meet past me it would either be 3rd or 5th grade me and I would tell both to draw, even when it feels like it’s not good enough, draw to your little hearts content. It doesn’t matter if anyone appreciates your siblings art more then yours, I doesn’t matter that you only really started making stuff for you in 5th grade and ocs the summer before, draw. Oh and also I’d say play Pikmin, kinda kick started who I am today and maybe draw bugs you love those so maybe copy and learn from those bug books you always carried around. Or just go outside idk be a kid, live a little. You might have the rest of your life ahead of you but if you can start your journey to happiness earlier gods please do it

Agh. Rant stuff go brrr. Had to get this out my system cuz I’m rereading msb rn to write down notes about the characters and remember them and I’m getting nostalgic. I just love this comic sm and the planet ribbon universe is just a really really big and important thing to me. I’ve been wanting to help fill out the wiki since like I first found out it had one. Or maybe it was the year after that I really considered working on it but for atleast this year last year and the year before that I’ve wanted to help fill it out and the thought of actually doing it gives me the feels, idk. It would just be basic info and maybe a side profile thing like on the current character pages and then also a picture so you can actually tell who the character is but idk I just, this is such a big think to me and I wanna start working on it at some point. Anyways it’s probably the hyperfixation and other things talking rn but agh! I should do my assigned reading and nap now. Go my scarab