I NEED AND I WANT AN OLDER EMO BF

i reeeally want an emo boy he can be rude to me i wouldn't care i just want him to give me attention and i want him to have no friends so i can be his one and only is that so much to as for

it would be so hot when he tells me he's cutting himself or starving again and i would love it if he would do random things with me or tell me about things he loves anxious