it's hard life

it's been years since my life changed. everything is up and down and 

there is happiness but never ending problems. i just keep venting to 

everyone to the point i just vent to strangers that nothing know about 

me. my friends understands me but there's a limit and they eventually 

leave but in reality it's just my assumption and instead i was the one 

who leave and pushed away my friends. i don't understand my life and 

the decisions that i make to myself. it's getting hard. i wanna end this 

suffering of mine.