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i thought as i got older, life would be more fun. Not easier but more adventurous and lively, like id have tons of friends and people i care about. Reality of my situation is that im a total loser with two friends from the i used to live in and a girlfriend. I have a few “friends” as well in my current state but they obviously don’t care about me. Not to say my main three people are insufficient but at times i feel alone with only the same group of people. To worsen this i go to a charter school and my we dont get new students unless they are freshmen, so making nee friends in person is pretty much out of the picture, though im not the talkative kind anyway.
Now im left with a dilemma, sure ive got my dream highschool, dreamgirl, dream living space and life out where i live now, but i cant help but feel empty, i always have the option to move back but i just cant commit to it. I feel i will lose too much, yet the more i stay here the lonelier and more introverted i get, oh and im completely doxxed by my old friends in my current area, and they pester me all the time. At the same time, the gains of moving back arent as equal, definitely losing alot more, only to what? Gain a few more friends who could still just as easily forget about me.
I guess i dont want to leave where i am now but my moving has been crossing my mind more and more lately, and whenever i ask for advice, the person who lives where i lives says stay and the one who doesnt tells me to move. I feel trapped and alone and i dont know how this will affect me later in life
Sorry about the lame vent…!!
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I understand you, I think that even if you have what you have always wanted, if it is not with the people with whom you wanted to share those moments, it makes you not feel good about being in any place, or It could also be that we expect more from others or from ourselves in certain situations.
Thank you so mch this really helps! :,)
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