i feel like shit and had to write it out idfk

i feel so pathetic writing this but i need to scream into the void for a sec. i hate feeling lonely and its been getting so much worse recently. i always try to meet new ppl when i go out but idk why cuz it never amounts to anything. im always told "ur good" when messaging ppl but somethings always telling me that im just a bother to everyone especially when everyone is dry with me or doesnt answer at all. i would rlly like to find someone to spend my life with but how tf is that evr gonna happen when i cant even make friends wtf is so wrong with me ill never know but i hate it.AAAAGGGHHH FUCK THIS FEELING DUDE FUCK EVERYTHING