Love bombing.

Holy airball. Love bombing has GOT to be the worst bs to man’s kind. No cause tell me why everything was going sunshine and rainbows and now she didn’t even wish me a fuckass happy birthday cause she was “too busy”. Like holy fuck man if you just got tired of me tell me jeez. My birthday went shitty as well, and her pulling out ts was like a fatal combo. I don’t even know — it’s like each birthday is getting worse and worse and I do not understand why like. Dawg aren’t these supposed to be the best years of my life? Hell naw I ain’t built for this shit. I know this bullcrap was short asf but man what else do I gotta say? Okay I understand that people come and go, but at least communicate it to me properly instead of just making a ghost out of yourself? Hello??? She even demanded to “talk it out” when I was insisting on not wanting to because I knew that it wouldn’t end pretty. We had a heated argument, she was on the verge of taking a long break and had me genuinely hyperventilating and sobbing hysterically. I then tried apologising to her and like she did too but things are just.. not the same anymore. I miss my girlfriend. She says she likes her alone time but she never told me until not even a month ago, how was I supposed to know? How am I supposed to know when YOU want to be left alone if you never fucking talk to me. Having more time for gaming than to just text me two sentences…? She got mad at me and told me that I was making her look like the asshole but I had already told her that I didn’t wish for this convo to continue since I knew that she WOULD end up pissed off. I don’t like it when people are pissed off. I don’t like being yelled at. It makes me feel like a rabbit clutching in terror. I don’t like confrontation. I just want me and her to be happy. “Well gaming makes me feel better/relaxes me” you used to come to me whenever you wanted either of those things. That was just a bittersweet way of telling me you do not spending time together as much as before. Why is she still pretending? Why can’t she drop the mask already. I know she doesn’t love me, surely not as much as she did a couple of months back. I have planning and preparing the paragraph for her birthday since April. I have her birthdate set as my password to unlock my phone. She has yet never remembered any of our monthly anniversaries. And when I do remind her she sheepishly realises and then asks and kind of demands for… “pics”. I don’t feel loved nor appreciated anymore. God I miss her.