PR's journal #2!!!

Hi guys!!!! ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ It's been forever since i got on here T_T but i'm here!!!! I'm so sorry i haven't really been active on here that often :(((((((( but here i am!!!! I'm on my macbook because my tablet lags when i port the blog layout (ᵕ,—_—,) and it's the only computer that doesn't take 5 decades to open a single application... (╥﹏╥) my macbook may be obsolete {chrome just dropped support and i don't wanna use safari because it has all my sibling's shit on it and you can't make profiles on this thing} but atleast it can run roblox!!!! (ᵕ ´ᗜ`) But uhmmm i'm learning deseret {alt writing system invented by a cult (ᵕ•́ -•̀)} and it's really fun and easy!!!!!!/srs ( ˶ˆᗜˆ˵ ) i basically learned it overnight and through just the wikipedia page ( ˶° ᗜ°)!! I even translated my pronouns page into deseret!!!!! {linked through the pronouns page on my profile} but i don't support the cult behind it {very bigoted}, i really only think the writing system is cool... (｡﹏｡") but uhmm anyways!!! i'm a guy noww which isn't very convincing because i mean, look at me... (◞ ⸝⸝ ◟ ) but i try my best!!! my parents are very unsupportive plus i'm just some dumb 13 year old boy so i can't really do anything much and it's even worse because my aesthetic is like verrrrrryyyy feminine but i mean clothes nor aesthetic = gender so i think i can be happy as a janegirl and i mean if cis guys can wear legwarmers and camisoles under cardigans so can I but honestly i don't really like my body, i hate these parts a lot °՞(ᗒᗣᗕ;)՞° but before i drive this into some big traumadump i will say when i was 11 i used to daydream about "what if i was ftm?' and i wished i had a weedwhacker so uhm yeah i'm not very suprised i turned out this way but anyways... i don't like cis boys my age, they're loud, obnoxious, and racist. Plus they whine about the tiniest things because why does it affect you when i like a show about a talking phone????? why does it affect you when someone like some roblox game about colorful toon things???? i honestly think people like that give too much of a shit, relax bro... (ㆆ_ㆆ)???? but honestly since i've filtered out most of them on my tt feed {yes i doomscroll T_T} i've felt at peace, but a scary trend i've been noticing is that people are WAYYYY too comfy with spouting racist bullshit because sometimes i get these videos of like the history of indian brands and i see the comments and it's just "indians are scammers!!!! indians are dirty and gross!!!!!!!!" which i think is fucking disgusting, plus the normalization of shitty ai images mixed with racism????? (ಡ᎔ಡ) honestly i wish we could just be respectful and hold hands but uhhhhhhmmmm since idk what else to say i'm gonna cut it here!!!! bye guys!!!!!!! ヾ(＾ ∇ ＾).