what am I..

Sigh, so like for context I grew up online, for like 6-7 years, and most of it? I spent being a dude. So now that I'm actually trying to catch up to irl and hang out with the few friends and family I had that always were there for me, I feel totally off whether I act more dudeish or girlish.

I went with me being genderfluid depending on the situation but I don't feel right. Like "sometimes I want to be one gender or the other"?? No I'm legit just fucking me. I don't know. 

Even my little brother is respectful, he's like 10 and says "here you go boy, or girl, or whatever you are" and I laugh about it because it's cute but.. man. I just wish I could stick with something. 

I'm like, SEVENTEEN GUYS. AND I STILL HAVE NO CLUE. How can I possibly think of dating again when I might fully turn into one gender?? I can't stay unsure forever. 

This is stressing me out.