[05/07/25] I'm gonna get mauled to death on this site 100%

I think I may have a personality disorder but I can't get help because no adult wants to test me not even for autism

They say I'm too " smart " to be autistic (ableism..) and that I can't be autistic cause " they don't think so " ??? How do they know. are they inside my brain watching if i have autism??? I also struggle so much with basic stuff but they just think I'm clumsy and lazy. Self diagnosing on this site is scary because someone is gonna come here and tell me to kill myself for self diagnosing