is it really not that obvious?

to start, these thoughts WONT be depressing (i think) cuz im happy, and i swear ill go on more of my small adventures when the temp. goes way way way down...

anyhoo ive been thinking about how a lot of ppl cant tell if im a boy or girl. its kinda random and i like to see what they think becuz it gives me an idea of how majority of ppl see me as, but its also kind of a realization.

i dont wana spoil wat i am cuz if anyone reads this i want them to guess haha, but my mom has been on my ass about looking like a HOMO (idek wat her problem is), and every single genuine conversation i try to have wit her, she shifts it over to this topic. her arguments about the entire community are genuinely intriguing, but also not completely true.

her favorite way to make her point on why she doesnt like queer ppl is to mention how she shouldnt jus be expected to follow their ways (i think she means as their beliefs?) and be so supportive if they dont care about her own beliefs. i suppose it makes sense, since she respects everyone as a person (just doesnt support), but then she backs it up by saying if they wouldnt ever go to church with her that means she shouldnt care about their queerness.

ik damn well if a muslim person was willing to go to church with her as long as she would go to a mosque with them, she would decline without hesitation.

i dont argue with her though, because it ends with her making sure ill never be queer.

UH i mean im asexual (nothing sexual is at all pleasing to me or a way for me to be attracted to someone) but panromantic (im attracted to guys and gals and everything else in a romantic way, but personally i lean closer to guys).

i would be kicked out for even staying that.

i dont have many more thoughts on this topic, nor do i want to think about it, so if anyone reads this, based on my pfp wat do i look like