My Name

What is the meaning of my name?

Not the name I was given, but the name I chose to be.

The name Zaphy, something so simple and easy to say.

What is the meaning of my name?

The name that grew with me, as silly as it may sound.

The name that started as something pretentious and a way to feel above everyone else.

What is the meaning of my name?

Zafkiel, the name I chose because I felt my intelligence was the only thing of worth I had many years ago.

The knowledge I used to make myself feel above everyone else who succeeded more than me.

What is the meaning of my name?

God's knowledge is it's true meaning, an overstatement of the only quality that made me feel better when those around me were happy.

What is the meaning of my name?

Zaphkiel, the name I chose because I wanted to change and improve from what I once was, yet I didn't have the ability to let my feelings go.

The name I clung to so that I could feel different without any changes at all.

What is the meaning of my name?

Azazel, the name I chose when I fell completely like the angel who held it.

The name I took when I gave up and realized my knowledge didn't matter, yet neither did anything else.

What is the meaning of my name?

I don't believe in religion, yet I stuck to names based in it to make the way I felt feel less real.

What is the meaning of my name?

Zaphy, the name I chose when I realized I shouldn't compare myself to others.

Zaphy, the name I chose when I realized I would be a better person if I accepted myself as who I was.

Zaphy, the name that, while chosen before I met you, became a symbol of how you helped me live.

What is the meaning of my name?

Zaphy, the name that proves the journey I have taken. The journey that ends with me and you.