My life and how I kinda have tried to deal with it °+(*´∀｀)ｂ°+

this is kinda a lot of text, i don't know if anyone will read all that LOL

I'm currently on vacation, but i have an exam soon, they always scare me. I'm nervous about my schedule, my classmates, and my teachers... but i also feel excited, about how i'll do, even though the high school i'm going to is a little strict, and i feel like i should put some academic pressure on myself. I really feel a little lost these days, if i'll be able to remember everything on the day of the exam, or even think about the future, like how many times have you been asked what you want to be, and your only answer is i don't know? Sometimes i feel like i'm falling behind, somehow it hurts me knowing that when people ask me what i want to be i just say i don't know. i wish i could be certain, to know where i'm going, to know who i am, but the truth is i don't always have that. i've always noticed that everyone seems to have something... A passion, a talent, a clear path, and i just try not to get lost in myself. There are days when i wake up and feel like the future is too big for me, like i'm missing something, like i'm not ready to know what's expected of me and if i can achieve it. Sometimes i wonder if i'm too far behind, how long my road is, and how far ahead everyone is of me.

It’s probably too soon to think about these things, maybe i’m still too young, and of course, i don’t think this every day, there are times when i think about the things that inspire me, things that i’m interested in, i also believe i have passions at times, i like to imagine scenarios where i’m surrounded by the things i like, think about being able to travel in the future, think about recording videos or being able to share the things i love with my heart. i imagine myself eating cookies or desserts that i like and that cheers me up, even if i’m not even sure if it’s healthy for me to eat desserts due to medical circumstances, but even those small hopes of things that I can’t do now fill me with joy and I want to do what I wish for.

Maybe someone out there feels the same way i do, & i'd like to know if so, how do you deal with all of this. Maybe this will serve as a little advice to you: don't get discouraged, sometimes things just seem boring and even become routine, maybe even sometimes thinking about the things that inspire you feels like a goal you don't want to achieve, that the easiest thing is to isolate yourself in the guise of ''making an effort'' to distract from the fact that your heart will never be satisfied by anything other than those moments where you just see the ceiling or sit and absorb the aimless feeling of drowning in complacency.

Even after feeling so empty, try to think about the things you like, in a future that you will manage to have even if the future is so difficult to predict, do not fall into the idea that your life is left without shine or strength to continue, because after all, you are still there, it is still your life and your thoughts are still trapped in a bubble of your own remains, and that is what matters, listen to the music you like, enjoy the food you like, look at the things you like, even if it is a long or slow process, rest assured that you will manage to get out of a situation as difficult as feeling bad.        (*´人｀*) 📚

 remember to give some rest to yourself <3<3