your art will never be good enough

i'm gonna talk in second person but imagine me talking to a mirror or something (or don't if you think me talking to you might help you)

also just wanna say this whole thing is a cope basically. i guess it's just relevant to some of my stuff at the moment...

i'm sure every human with an ounce of neuroticism in them has to deal with impostor syndrome and things adjacent to it, but for some reason it's only us art folks that let our neuroticism become an actually big threat to us. like, you always feel like "oh shit i'm not good enough, it's over for me, i'll never be as good as all these actually good artists" and you wanna quit and stuff. i know you do, i'm watching your every move!!!!! i'm in your closet!!!! (not the only closet i'm in btw)

2 things for you:

one. you're uhh... you're right, most likely. if you feel this way you probably do suck. big time. just getting it out of the way first.

two. you'll always feel this way. i'm very sorry, you were born with a terrible terrible mental illness (well there's a lot of them in you) of being a neurotic and there's nothing you can do about it. the only time you'll ever be happy with your art is in a hypothetical future where you're "better" (both you and i know this ain't gonna happen). pain is unavoidable.

aura, does this mean i should quit??? - I'd like to see you try!!! seriously tho, you shouldn't. you should keep going, just know that art is painful. and when you've made something that you really really hate, that makes every bone in your body hurt from cringe, just post it and forget about it. you won't stop hating it either way. idk, maybe the people of the interwebs won't hate it. they probably will tho.

just like how i hate this post you're reading right now!!!!!!

tldr: MAKE SHITTY ART AND POST YOUR SHITTY ART YOU IDIOT!!!!!!! OF COURSE IT'S PAINFUL, LIFE IS PAIN!!!! DEAL WITH IT!!!!!!

i feel better now