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i have the most crippling anxiety when it comes to growing up , hell i'm already an adult , i just can't wrap my head around having to be a " real " person , i am so scared L O L to graduate college , to have to get a big girl job , AND AN INTERNSHIP . makes me want to wrap my damn car around a tree L O L
any1 else feeling like they don't have a purpose or clue what to do with yourself or your life ?
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pepprmoth83
MANN same!! this past year has tried me. i took a year off from my college journey, so I have a bit more time left, but i just so happened to choose the most tumultuous year to heap more servings of college onto my plate (government yayyy lalala wooooo!! AAA).
i have an inkling of a clue of what i want with my life, but then i flip it on its head, feel unsatisfied with it, and kick any supposed purpose to the curb. maybe having multiple purposes is the key? it;s hard to grapple with at times. i'd love to discuss that :)
what are you studying? :3 i;m studying biology
currently studying public health : ) it's fulfilling but i'm worried there won't be a job for me after graduating ( thanks to whoever in the government got rid of funding ) . with anxiety i think it's really hard for me to ground myself and remember i am so much more than my degree , and that my purpose is more than what my job is gonna be . it's just hard to not feel like i'm wasting my time and my family's . i don't know L O L . i know getting my degree will be worth it in the long run , it's just hard to see that now .
biology ! ! i was gonna major in biology , but something messed up at my university and i had to pick a health science major , which is where i found public health
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yeahh, i want to be an entomologist/do research and it feels a little bleak out here :'))) we have such a limited perspective, i think it makes it easier to fall into all the doom and gloom. but i think in the end we will be okay -- past generations before us were dealt pretty bad hands at times and they were fine (but now we are here... so maybe not fine LOL). you can do so many amazing things with public health, i think it will definitely work out in the end :)
the anxiety makes me compare myself to other people, even outside of professional work. like "oh X person has SO much experience, i've hardly done anything compared to them." Comparing is a vicious thought process to fall into. i HOPE our efforts are not a waste of time... i feel like i've wasted so much time already :'') i guess its how you frame it though.
Im glad that it fulfills you :) that's really cool -- what opportunities are there for you at your university, like internships and stuff?
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that’s such a good perspective , it’s hard to see outside of your own frame a lot of the time . my university is surrounded by a lot of communities , so finding a community health center that is taking internships hopefully won’t be too hard , but i’m just so stressed cause i can’t graduate without it :’) . all i can think about is not graduating on time , but i guess that’s the worst that can happen ? so maybe it’s not all that bad :)
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