TEC16, ep11: TRAVELLING

maybe its cuz im on vacation rn but

the older i get, the more i watch my parents planning trips, routes, booking hotels, buying tickets to all sorts of activities, talking to locals and i get scared shitless

i start thinking "when im an adult, i dont think ill be able to sort all this stuff out, ill barely manage to get my shit together at home, but in ANOTHER COUNTRY????" 

for some reason airports scare me the most. it feels too complicated, like my intuition isnt good enough to forsee every required step (sending off suitcases, checking in (??? idk man), finding the gate, boarding) ahh dude just thinking ab it gives me chillsssss

and to add to that, im a huge fucking coward when it comes to talking to ppl or asking for help. such a coward that id rather be completely lost in silence and just deal with it

i know thats bad. ive been pretty sheltered all my life so im not as independent as i would like

dont even get me started ab the cost of going on vacation. my brain is convinced that ill be broke for my entire adult life so to think ab the AMOUNT of money you need to spend is seriously making me think that ill never travel abroad 

but i know thats probably not true. maybe.

anyway, gonna enjoy this sweet commitment-less trip as much as i can. bye bye <3