Echoes in Isolations

My brain hurts, pounding

Loud, louder, and louder.

Another night I go wonder

What is even the point anymore?

But by the end of that thought

Ill drift off to sleep into the dream 

Place I want to have. 

I wake up, drowsy, not able to 

Keep my eyes open wondering

What the day has in store for me.

I walk out of the Messy Bedroom, 

With dirty clothes and trash 

all over the ground, into another dirty

Room filled with trash and dirty dishes.

It is my fault it has gotten this far

I’ve lost my motivation,

Being in a depression episode

I know it will get better, but for now

It feels like the end of the world

That is kinda why I am making this blog

To let out these feeling anonymously, 

I am alone in real life but I feel seen online.

People in my hometown judge,

Judge way too much, for no reason

It’s harmful, it hurts, and it is always 

The ones who are closest to you to 

Hurt you the worst. 

I lost my best friend, she was a bad friend,

Not in the beginning but overtime 

She turned cold, she was someone else

She fucked me over, she made everyone hate me

I am alone because of her

I was never allowed to make my own friend

So it was just her, and her group

I forgot how to make friends

It’s hard as an adult, I don’t like talking

I hate being around people mostly

Then after a day of all this thinking

I close my eyes again to another escape 

To my dream scape.