a pause to misery

Something has shifted once again, I don't know why. I think life is quite beautiful when it's lived like mine even though it is awful at times. I don't know... I talked to my therapist today and she thinks medication might be able to help me. I often feel like I have so much I want to do right now, especially given that it's the summer before my classes at the community college. I want to read so many books and watch so many movies and do so many things, but no matter how bad I wanna do these things I just can't. I don't know why that is. She thinks it's depression, but I think that's just me. But that's beside the point. 

I feel fine now. I don't know how long that will last, but I will try to enjoy it while I feel this way and do what I enjoy. Tomorrow I will have toast with jelly, yogurt with strawberries and granola, maybe tea or orange juice. I don't know what I'll have for dinner. I'll have to think on it. But whatever.

In other news, my dad keeps talking about going shooting at the range again soon. I hope we do get to go, I love shooting very much. I am excited for that, and maybe even going to the lake soon. I am miserable, but not for now, and that is fine.