Jun.30.2025

Dear God,

I feel so alone constantly this summer. I feel like I have no meaningful connections in this town and I know that is entirely my fault. I should have tried harder at school to put myself out there and to make better bonds but I was too nervous to do so. Totally lame of me :((. I pretty much dug my own grave... Anyways 2day, I went out into town. I seriously needed to get out of the house before I become a full fledged hermit :// I went 2 the record store and got a good price on 3 cassettes and 1 cd, rad ikr (¬‿¬). Afterwards, I got to go to the secondhand bookstore and got the book The Last Days of Innocence. I dropped everything off at my house and headed off to the river to read, but ended up mostly watching the ducks and my phone <//3.. But then this family of 8 came stomping down to the spot I was @ and started throwing rocks at the poor ducks like WTF??? I totally stormed off, so there's that ("¬_¬).

Honestly, I fee so envious of people who I see having fun with their friends, in person and irl. Everything about seeing this reminds me on everything I am missing out on this summer. However, I am glad I have my family. This thought process is what drives away a bit of my loneliness lolz. 

I feel like Bella Swan from the 2nd Twilight movie where she was all depressed LMAO

- PootyWay2Tang