ever feel like everyones plan b?

to begin, id like to make it known that im happy and grateful, jus the overthinking little things is making me go insane. oh nd dont mind the inconsistencies in my writing style i get lazy

i finished 8th grade nd will be going into hs in september. the year has been fine, jus a couple bad situations but mostly good nd neutral. ever since my knee injury and surgery in the end of march nd beginning of april, i feel like too much can change in such little time. i missed a month of skool, nd as much as i love my friends, i cant imagine reaching out to them in the future when we arent forced to be tgthr in class.

the last day of skool (or third to last becuz we were all busy), us 5 went out to celebrate the beginning of break, which was enjoyable. we talked a lot, laughed a lot, but after it all ended? silence. nobody reached out or even made an effort to see each other more. i get maybe im being inconsiderate giving they cld be doing other things wit friends and family, but it still hurts knowing i dont have those other things to do. i have other friends, but so do those other friends. i feel like everyone is drifting away.

i cldnt shake the feeling that it was my fault for not reaching out either, so i did with a couple friends (skool, practice, etc.). most were free, nd when i saw them, it seemed like they were only there out of boredom.

i dont know how to feel becuz im not alone or anything. cld it be an overreaction to overthinking? most likely, but now im praying there r new kids that i will actually connect with when skool begins.

the side quest of complimenting ppl on the street has not done too much so far.

OH nd if ur an irl friend seeing this (which i dont expect but okay), part of this short blog goes to u too.

life is good, but i care about too many of them