save me from myself

looking back at myself, back when i was still blonde, god fucking damn was i an edgelord.

every time i post something nowadays, i gotta ask myself, "do you really want this shit to be a part of your digital footprint forever?" at least 5 times before i press post. and not gonna lie, this probably saves me from a lot of embarrassing memories in the long term. although who knows, maybe the shit i'm doing right now will give me shame tremors sometime down the line. who knows? who cares. let's all be honest with ourselves.

life update: blah blah blah no progress no motivation no money no girls, so business as usual. i decided to start my site over from scratch cause a lot of my j*vascript functions are an absolute mess, and i need to dumb them down as much as possible before i can upload the site and be able to live with myself. i've also started actually taking art seriously and will probably leave the pfp i got right now behind because it looks kinda dookie. i can't make up my mind on shit like the size/ proportions/ realism that i want from my artstyle going forward. every time i look back at my art it makes me so uncomfortable because it is just so bad, but i don't know what to replace it with. i'm somewhat confident with what i've got going on so far, but before i settle into a new style, i gotta actually develop it into something that won't make me shudder from second hand embarrassment once i'm wrinkly and old.

i am also sleepy. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz