ALT MEET UP AT THE MALL FOOD COURT??!!??!!??

I was planning on going to the meet by myself when I saw it announced on tiktok...  but I was laying in my own filth like a cockroach so I was like.. "I lowkey don't wanna wash uuupppppp....."

but then my bsf sent me a text about how she was asking me to come with her and some friends to the mall

little did I notice... THE TIME, PLACE, AND DATE WAS EXACT TO THE ALT MEET UP.

so when we got there, I was SHOCKED to see half the food court covered with swarms of people, like scene kids, ACTUAL y2k/mcbling, Lolita, Jirai Kei's (im one of theemmmm!!!!), emo's, goths, and SO MANY COOL PEOPLE AGHHHHHH

and then I realized why my bsf was asking us to go to the mall... WE WERE GOING TO THE ALT MEET.

YES, THE ONE ANNOUNCED ON TIKTOK

and my anxiety just BURST everywhere, because im a jirai with strict parents, so I didn't have ANY makeup on other than lip tint and mascara, AND thick eyebrows because my mom thinks ill regret it if I go thin T^T

THERE WERE SO MANY COOL PEOPLE AGGHH

I went to this table at the left of the meet, and met an also very anxious girl (perhaps much more anxious then I am..", a girl im following on tiktok who was surprisingly the same age as me, AND at another table, I met a lolita!! I showed her my art, we complimented each other, and she was too nice!!! god I wish I was good at makeup like all the girls at that meet, but my mom keeps telling me mascara is going to make me lose my eyelashes, so just imagine what shell think if I use pink eyeshadow to try jirai kei eye makeup!

im an artist, so normally, you would expect me to be good at these things... but I can't even apply mascara without blinking :(

I be all like, "I wanna wear contacts!!" until I realize you have to TOUCH your eve to APPLY AND REMOVE them. im okay with eyedrops though, I have the same relation with it as I do with mascara.

and the hosts were SO NICE WAHHH I really looked up to the jirai host! I wonder if ill be as good as her in jirai kei someday... I also loved her pink hair!!!

anyway, I WISH I could show u guys my outfit, but all the pics are on my phone... I did this cute space-buns hairstyle though!! im thinking of wearing that instead of braids next year.. anyone have advice for styling a gender neutral school uniform w pants??

anyway, tysm for reading peeps!!! bye lovely !!!