Me, Beer And The Missing Pills

Another insomnia yesterday. Well I think it's time for me to get use to that. My eyes dried and barely blinked, i spend my whole night listening to "Mc.Baldiee" radios and speaks but still couldn't fall asleep, i should've tried the talking method i posted before but i was not really well last night that even a single sentence will grains out my strength. I hate what insomnia brings me and i don't want to see monster around again. My room's light turn on automatically last night but i don't even want to give a damn about it.

Until today's morning before sunrise, I'm still forcing myself lying on the bed and close my eyes just in cast I might have a million of one possibility to fell asleep, which clearly i don't. I went out for a walk around my old house and brings a beer with me because i don't want water. I'll probably upset my stomach later TvT

I sat down on the yard i used to throw frisbee and watch the sun rises. I pretty enjoy being alone especially these moments when you don't have to think or do anything but just release your senses. It's kind of like the meditation they do in buddha stuff but they won't do it with canned beer. I love watching clouds for no reason, it's like bring daydream to an entertainment. Just enjoy the every edges and curve the cloud shaped with the sunshine behind them, i bet i can spend a hour just by staring at clouds. Early bird chirping in trees near by and i can only smell dirt and plants after the morning rain, it reminds me the playground i used to play when i was little. 

I wonder when will be the last sunrise I've ever had. I'm tired of myself ^v^

Oh! and the photos!