I haven't been online in here for a long time, that's due to several personal situations that have made me sadly not have time for my own, or to have energies to do it.

This post is a scream to the vast and immense void of the internet, a whim of my tired soul to scream at something how I feel.

My medication has not been helping me with my depression, even though they have doubled the dosage, the medicine only adds to my overall problems, making me feel sick, aggravated, sad and miserable... But that's my reality, the hardship I must face and struggle against, that's the way of life...

"SUFFERING IS THE ROOT OF ALL GREATNESS"

Is what I like to tell myself every time I endure hardship, though it has been a long time since I've craved for greatness, or living with my own mortality and thoughts.

If you are reading this, I hope you can find some kind of twisted solace in knowing that there's people out there that struggle as much as you do, and that those people can bond and create a relationship with you over bonding the hardships you have had to endure, so...

Shall I die sick, twisted and demented because of my own mind, or shall I keep struggling to overcome all of my hardships despite it all? 

That's only up to me to decide...