i make everyone around me feel guilty and responsible for my emotions

i dont know how to stop i dont want them to feel responsible unless they are responsible and even then my feelings last too long and at some point theyre not responsible and i am and i dont want them to feel responsible but i dont want to lie and say im okay 

at some point the boundary between my excessive emotionality and the people around me will strengthen and theyll be able to look at my pain from a distance and leave me alone with it but if they leave me alone with it ill feel abandoned and alone and ill never trust you again but if they dont ill be like whos that guy the one with glasses in arrested development with the mommy buster yeah tread lightly or ill become buster or ill shoot myself in the face whos to say 

get away from me sad boy poison infect everyone around me im a rash 

im irish 

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