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6/28/2025 3:42 a.m.
I'm really new here, haven't explored much, so I'm not sure if this is okay to write down, but I really do feel stuck. I need someone to hear me on this. I'm 17 now, and my older sister doesn't allow me to go outside with friends or even alone. I want some independence in my life. I've always been stuck at home and was rarely let out at times until now. My sister says to do chores around the house, and I try to, but the major depression that I developed over my years has restrained me from procrastinating things I want to do to a high degree. I barely scrape by doing things unless I'm working somewhere like an internship or genuinely have a spike of motivation. My parents aren't exactly in my life. My mom is sort of there, but emotionally unavailable, and my dad is in prison. I don't know what to do with myself, and I don't want to go back to therapy. I don't want to be sent to another mental hospital illegally. I'm growing frustrated, so I plan on leaving on my bike to go to a library and get away from home for a while. I'm hoping that getting out a little more helps me with depression, but my sister is taking that away. I don't wanna rebel, but I'm sick of her doing this to me.
In the end, I fear most people will mind their own business if they read this, but I just want someone to hear me. But I don't really know where I went with writing this.
Edit: (library is closed so I'll go when it's open lol)
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cel the lamb
I'm really sorry that you're going through all this. That all sounds hard. Really hard.
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You're 17 and becoming an adult. You need a level of autonomy, and your relationship with your sister requires boundaries. Not sure if you're able to talk to your mom about this, but it is unacceptable for your sister to be bossing you around like this at this age. If you can, try having a discussion with them about your emotional needs. You need to be able to have a healthy social life where you are able to express yourself as an individual. Like it or not, you can only have a healthy personality if you're able to express yourself.
If you aren't able to have this conversation with them, then the next best thing is to try and get away from them. Apply to colleges that are outside your home town. See if you're able to live in a door by yourself. Try to do little things like getting your own job so you don't have to rely on your family's money. Being able to cook your own food. Anything to decrease your dependence on them.
I sincerely wish you the best for your future. Take care of yourself. And love yourself.
Thank you
it's a little difficult to know where to start with independence, but I wanna do my best.
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It is very difficult to start, we're all figuring that out. Independence can be a little chaotic at times. It's a lot easier to be told what to do, but that's no fun!!
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A little bit of chaos is better than tyranny.
Good luck! Btw I love your profile. I'm a big fnaf fan as well.
by cel the lamb; ; Report