The little things

I went for a walk today. It did wonders for my mental health. I have been meaning to practice gratitude more often, so here’s stuff I saw that made my night (and other random thoughts I had while walking)

• Saw a dad holding his daughter in his arms, rocking her back and forth as he walked in circles in front of their home, letting her get some fresh air.

• There were a lot of kids. I don’t plan on having kids, but their joy of running around spread to me. They looked around my siblings’ age, so it’s nice to know there are people they could be friends with.

• My shorts were a bit uncomfortable not gonna lie, I had to constantly pull them down

• I smelled a lot of things, the primary scents being cigarettes and petrichor. I’ve never understood why people smoke, I don’t get the appeal and I hope I never will.

• I saw a lot of flowers, I love flowers. Not much to say about that, just pretty flowers being proof of life’s beauty.

• I saw a lot of cats too !!! I saw 3 cats, I tried approaching them but they ignored me :( I didn’t want to bother them so I just let them be. 

• I’m very thankful for having the privilege of living in a place where a person my age can walk at night without having to be on the lookout for anything.

• I saw some people my age too, great to know I’m not the only one in this stage of life lol. I started seeing more people once the sun set. no sane person goes outside in the daytime where I live, it’s like 40ºC outside most days.

• I walked like 50 mins more than I planned, once you start you don’t really want to stop. I wasn’t really trying to clear my mind or anything, I just really enjoyed listening to music. I actually started getting sleepy during the last 10 mins so I just KNOW I’m sleeping well tonight. My dad actually texted me asking if everything was alright because he didn’t expect me to walk so much lol

What I found interesting was how the gc I have with my friends was SILENT until I got home. It felt like life was giving me a moment to be at peace by myself.

I got home sweaty, sticky and less scared, because despite everything, the wind still felt how I remembered it. There is still so much joy outside, you just have to look for it.

walking playlist :P

Nettles - Ethel Cain
Anthems of a seventeen year old girl - Yeule
Golden age - Ethel Cain
Back to me - The Marias
American teenager - Ethel Cain
Crush - Ethel Cain
Sun bleached flies - Ethel Cain
Famous last words (an ode to eaters) - 1017 ALYX 9SM
God's country (feat. Wicca Phase Springs Eternal) - Ethel Cain

Everyone should run while listening to the last chorus and outro of American Teenager at least once in their life. Actually, you could run to all of these songs except for Back to me and Famous last words.

for the best experience (imo) run from:

Nettles: Last chorus and post-chorus ¨Cause baby I've never seen brown eyes look so blue...¨ 5:19
Anthems of a seventeen year old girl: Chorus ¨Park that car...¨ 1:37
Golden age: Second chorus ¨And got what I wanted...¨ 2:51
American teenager: Perfect running song, but that outro???? gorgeous ¨But I'm still standing here...¨ 2:34

God's country: Pre-chorus ¨Take care of me, God...¨ 4:09

Crush: Pre-chorus ¨Yeah right, he fucking loves me...¨ 2:12
Sun bleached flies: Chorus (right before the most beautiful bridge ever!!) ¨And I keep praying and praying...¨ 4:17

some pics I took of stuff I found cool :)

much love xx