Why am I That Lazy?

Counting to now, I still don’t have a lot of “talents” or “skills”. I mean if you’re like scrolling on reels or shorts or whatever, you’ll always find someone more talented, and I’ll be quite motivated by that… well just a few days/_\

The purpose of playing the guitar is for doing cool in front of girls at first, sadly I found out that guitar is more attractive later. Then what else? I have nothing but that stupid guitar, I can’t find a job with that. But I realised that everything that can help you find a job is much boring. I tried to learn photography, ends up shitty. I was planning to practice some make up for the coming anime festival until I found out I was too ugly. I used to play skateboard, but now it’s lying in the corner of my room with dust on it.

I got a lots of ideas and things I wanna learn, but I don’t have the ability and patience to finish them. And I understand that those are all excuses I used for running away from my failure. I had enough of myself yet I don’t even have the time to plan a kill trip…

I also hate how myself is being like this with my shitty personality. But I still appreciate it Lain ^_^