rant

if your going to read js know its quite long..

I genuinely don't understand how people can really be so annoying to the point where it makes you want to jump off a building. no matter what I do there's always someone right behind following me and it irks me. like if you have the same interest as me I don't care at all but why is it when I finally find something to watch that I enjoy, do something, or maybe even discover a new hobby, there's ALWAYS someone doing the exact same?? In school, online, wherever I go, and the worse thing is the people who are always copying me are my friends. and I don't mean just a one time thing, It is every single little thing I do they are always right there ready and prepared. I can't be the only person who has friends like this and it gets annoying after a while, yk? at first I didn't mind it at all but it just kept going for days, weeks, months, started turning into years and I am so tired of it. even worser, I'm too much of a wuss to confront them ab it too because then I would be wrong. I stay quiet about it because I know something bad is going to happen between me and my friends if I even say a word. I can't even do anything without someone copying me then when I confront them (used to), it's always my fault and ever since then I just stopped saying stuff to people when I catch them doing something that irks me (SUCH AS COPYING). I at first liked how people liked the same thing as me but then when you just kept on liking everything I liked, did everything I did, it only made me hate them more as days passed by. I hate almost all my friends. maybe not hate but definitely starting to dislike. I only love my fg + my bf. not only do they copy my every move but their so fake to each other its ridiculous?? how do I even know they're not talking smack about me with each other when they talk smack about each other to me but act like bffs when their both around each other, make it make sense..? moral of the story, it's just so hard being around people who think its all cute to follow your every move, just be original and look into your own interests instead of always copying mine..? and It's not that I'm even exaggerating it, people also blindly copied me for YEARS and I am so close to crashing out on ALL of them, idc who it is. When I did use to confront people, I got accused of copying them. I told you about my interest and then you started liking It too, I told you about everything I enjoyed and you started liking it too...and I'm getting accused? sorry for the paragraph I had to let out this frustration 😞. but srsly I don't know what to do, I guess my only choice is to confront the people like this in my life because I don't have anything else I can do about this. and then certain people wonder why I don't enjoy texting or calling with specifically them smh. and I don't even care who sees this, either my friends from school, my online friends (not targeted to y'all ilysm), or anyone else I know. I only wrote this because I needed to rant and it for sure wasn't going to be to my friends who I don't even want to consider friends anymore. end of rant: (to keep myself calm I will put that everything Is fine n ok and my problems will start to fade eventually. 🥰)