i want to skate </3

i want to learn how to skate so baddddd, and i have a skateboard but its like a super cheap one that is like terrible quality. 

and i always find it difficult to find motivation to go practice. if i had friends that xhould skate it whould be so much more fun. like i need a real person with me to teach me and help me. i mean i have one friend that skate but tbf i dont rlly like hanging out with her and like she is a beginner herself and wayy younger than me </3 

and another part that makes it difficult to learn is that i live in the dutch country side, there are a few small skateparks in the area but those are TERRIBLE. like they are there bc people asked for them but they are shit and de ground is just falling apart. 

and you might say "just go skate around on the street" first off all, when youre alone its no fun, and second of all. its the dutch counrty side! even if you think you found a spot you chould skate it, the secon you touch it it falls apart or its just in areas where there are a bunch off people that are in the way.

anyway that is my rant of the day :P