I feel very alone

i know i have friends but liek i want more,what i have isnt yet enough methinks cos liek with new friends i get so paranoid and every interaction just feels forced, if i dont message first i think id not get messages in days,, i just dont really understand what makes me so unlikeable ?? its not really the right word but i dont know why else people would avoid talking to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! new friends never seem to last but i try so hard to keep them 

[[also with people who msg me on here, im not trying to ignore, notifs are subtle and im not on too much :(, i recommend contacting me elsewhere]]

ive said it before but i just rely and depend on reassurance so much bt i can only get it if i say sorry an obnoxious amount of times :S

maybe i just complain too much, nobody owes me anything,,, everythign is just very confusing

i am okay thougj, i can find [[limited]] comfort in other things

i love you, goopbye :)